Some days I wish Everhood could have just been done, some days I wish I could redo the entire game, some days I wish I made another game entirely.
But some days I can’t wait to get home to continue developing Everhood and my head is sprawling with ideas that I just need to get into the game.
I keep returning to the same thoughts being a creative, why am I doing this?
What am I gaining?
The video game industry news reports often that developers get treated unfairly and have bad job conditions, mostly these reports comes from America. Making your own game company is just a million other problems that comes with.
There are many companies that do succeed, but if one would look into how many companies starts and fades away within only a few years is probably a big number.
Financially it makes more sense joining another industry rather than make it in the video game industry, especially if one wants to have a normal work day routine.
So why am I doing this? Why do I make games knowing that most of the industry is not so great?
Some people do it to prove it to others, some people do it to prove to themselves.
I am doing this because I think about making entertainment all the time, I just can’t seem to turn that off.
Even when I am exhausted, my mind is set on “When I am full of energy again I want to start doing this”.
In one way I want to make Everhood free so people can play the game without any restrictions whatsoever, having an enormous amount of my free time on just releasing for free does not feel the best. I don’t think Jordi wouldn’t want to release something he has been working a lot of his time to be just for free.
There is certainly products that are released free but having ads or in-app purchases on a game like Everhood just feels... not right.
Setting a price tag on Everhood I hope won’t doom the game, I want to see lets play of the game and see people's reaction on certain areas of the game. Seeing other people play my games have been an indulgence I really didn’t know existed when I started my game development career. To view someone else play your game is nerve wreacking because you are always hoping the player won’t encounter any bugs or player gets confused and walk around in circles, most of the time it is a pain to watch but it is also an opportunity for me to address it someway to improve it.
One thing that really keeps me going is to see all the videos that will be posted on youtube and similar, making the best experience possible is what we are aiming todo.